Why our hearts is not changing? by Srila B.B.Tirtha Goswami
Sree Sree Guru Gaurangau Jayatah!
Devotee: Sometimes you can chant many lifetimes – chanting Hare Krishna, worshipping, and taking prasadam – Still, the heart is not changing. How does one change the heart?
Srila Guru Maharaj: For this, one has to have company of suddha-bhaktas because we have got difficulty inwardly – we are uttering the name Hare Krishna, Hare Krishna, Hare Krishna – but we have got this conception of self, "I am this body" and bodily interests predominate our heart. We are chanting the name and thinking, "I am having difficulty, I require another 50,000 dollars, please rescue me, Hare Krishna". He will see in your heart – according to your hearts desire, He will see. You are not wanting Krishna from your heart. You are trying to remove your problems. If sincerely anybody wants Krishna, immediately he will get. But because we can’t sincerely utter – we are habituated here, "I do not want to leave this Honolulu," we say. Where we will be taken? We do not know. And if Krishna comes and says "Go with Me. I”ll take you to Vrindavana, it is a hot place, but it is a very good place." Even then, you think you will leave this place, and there will be great difficulty there. “I shall have to beg alms,” you may say. You won’t be able to go with Krishna in Vrindavan. You are uttering the name of Krishna and when Krishna comes, he says "I have come-now, come along!"
But you say "no, no – I have got this nice hog family and responsibilities. Many obligations – many. I have got wife, children, etc. Who are you? I don’t agree with you. I won’t leave! I won’t leave! I won’t leave this Honolulu."
– His Divine Grace Srila Bhakti Ballabh Tirtha Goswami Maharaj