Like many fallen souls of western countries, I was very dissatisfied and sad to be in this material body and world. After looking for many Gurus who could help me to be happy, I was more confused. I could found no reals gurus, but only con -gurus, as Srila Guru Maharaj always said. One day they kicked me from their temples, because I was inclined to Gaudiya Vaishnavas Acharyas like Gurudev and Srila Sridhar Maharaj. But as Krishna say : “Sincere souls will never be deceived” and “God is perfect and his arrangement is also perfect” -it was a blessing to me. AfterI cried out for a real Gurudev, who could make me happy, the Lord showed me what Sri Guru is and really means ,When I personally saw this divine personality known as Srila Bhaktivedanta Narayan Goswami Maharaj, Oh! I could understand what is Sri Guru and how powerfull and effulgent he is. I saw with my very eyes how beautiful he is, and how sweet he is, he loves me so much that at that time I started to cry with affection to him. To me, he was like a mother who call her son, puts him at her lap and says, “Oh my dear son, be patient, you will be happy soon. I love you, don’t worry.”
What I can say about him? He is no other than ‘Saksad Dharitvena’, direct manifestation of Krishna, who is the embodiment of mercy and love. He kindly accepted me as his son and disciple, even knowing that I am not qualified. He kindly took all my material relations in this world and engaged me in his service, pulling me up by my sikha, he told me very strongly, “You are for Krishna, love for Krishna is the only goal of life, be strong and preach my message.”
Even now, that he is no more physically with us, I feel very happy to have had this great opportunity to see and serve him, and now I pray to Him that I can serve him forever with all my senses organs with determination – only then my life will be really successful. Thanks very much my Lord Guru Maharaj, you are now well known in all 3 worlds as the best of the Rupanuga Acharyas, who came in this world to preach very strongly the glories of Srimat Radhika and Hers dear manjaris. All glories to your divine lotus feet.
dina hina Baladeva das brahmachari